THANK YOUs!

I owe some THANK YOUs to several folks and apologize for my tardiness!

Talila

Tammy

Nicholas

The group fundraiser in Arizona over the Summer

And last, but very much not least, I want to give special THANKS for ed who has been so generous and has been mailing a contribution each and every month. I am grateful for his uplifting words and continued support!

If I have missed thanking anyone here, please, please do let me know. The least I can do is show my appreciation here!

Donations

I owe a few more THANK YOUs here! There were some donations in August that I need to give detail on and will do so soon. I am truly humbled by the help I have gotten in this battle for Christopher.

I am feeling hopeful for the appeal. There are about to be several costs associated with it--the transcript of the hearing, filing fees and retaining the appeals attorney. Also, visitation costs are mounting. If any of you out there are willing to donate, it is certainly a very good time!

However, I also want to be clear that for those who already have, just THANK YOU! Some of you have given donations more than once and I am already eternally in your debt and not asking you for more!!!

I am hugely appreciative of every person who has been willing to donate even $5. It has all kept the litigation going up to this point and I am incredibly thankful. Every single dollar is helpful and I am unspeakably grateful to have a community of friends who care about us and have been willing to give in these hard times.

Looking toward...NM Visit-OCT 3rd Wknd

I'll get to see Christoph for just about 60 hours this coming weekend. I wish it ever felt like enough time. I look forward to it and think about him constantly for the two weeks between visits, but once I am with him I feel nauseous with the countdown to good-bye. I hate my life. I hate that my son's childhood can now never be the wonderful, magickal time I wanted for him. I couldn't stop my baby being taken away. I'm a failure as a mother.

Denver Visit-OCT 1st Wknd

Christopher arrived in Denver Friday afternoon at 2:30. I picked him up at DIA. I also gave Bevin a ride to the Budget truck rental place. Christopher left crying Monday at 3pm. I wanted to die.

I hope to add more here later.

NM Visit-SEP 3rd Wknd

I got to pick up Christopher at 1:30 from pre-school on Friday and dropped him off at Bevin's office Monday at 3pm.

I hope to add more detail here later.

NM Visit-SEP 1st Wknd

I was able to visit Christopher in Santa Fe this past weekend. Bevin even allowed me to have an extra overnight with him for which I'm really very grateful.

We had a good bit of downtime together, attended the 400th Anniversary of Santa Fe Festival which had some really nice kids activities and also went for a hike. It's the trail Christopher found his walking stick on and so we looked and found me one this weekend too.

His emotional and behavioral issues are getting worse. I'm powerless to help or get him help.

I miss him so much and feel the full weight of the disservice done him. There is no hell worse that not being able to stop your baby from being hurt.

I might add more here later.

Trial 8.31 & 9.1

I'm still pretty emotional over it all, but I know I need to give the results of the final custody trial. Bevin has primary custody; full decision-making. I pay $730/mo child support. I pay half his atty fees, which comes to $25k. Restricted phone calls (Sun/Tue/Thu) and visitation on 1st and 3rd weekends.

I will appeal. I won't give up. I will never give up my son. This is wrong, wrong, wrong for him and I know that in my heart of hearts as only a mother can know. I cannot do any legal work on the case right now, however. I tried last week and just fell apart. I need to focus on getting through each day in between visits with Christopher.

So much of what happened and was said still seems surreal and any shred of belief in justice I still had is entirely gone. The Courts really let him get away with it all and Bevin seems like a monster beyond belief. But now we simply must to find some way to co-parent and do so as civilly as possible for as long as necessary for Christoph. Christopher has to remain the focus and we just need to have tunnel vision as much as humanly possible. Please pray for us all.

Thank you for everyone's help, phone calls, Email, willingness to testify, donations, thoughts, prayers, etc. I appreciate it more than I can ever fully convey. It's not over, but this chapter is closed.